An unnamed narrator writes in her diary about her first experiences with MDMA, or Ecstasy. A self-proclaimed "band geek," she thought her marching band being invited to the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade might earn her some recognition from her mother, but her sister being invited to prom overshadows it. Desperate to become someone with an exciting life, the narrator throws herself into the party scene, coming to love EDM music and becoming addicted to Ecstasy, all in the hopes of attracting a boyfriend. She discovers that the fast life is not always a life worth living.